pain.

I haven't written on this thing in a while. For one I guess I never have time to do anything and another reason can be that I don't want to admit my emotions. My blog is usually a good spot (for me at least) to get everything out. To just write down how I feel (for myself anyways), not trying to inspire anyone here, but if I do, I mean that's great. Anyways. This year, more than last year I have had a lot of stress in my life. With this stress I have a headache, that really brings me down. I take Advil, sleep, eat well to feel better and it's still there, if not stronger. This year college is actually a reality to me. Last year just seemed like it was a game, but this year I realized that next year I begin applying to med-school or at least thinking about it. It's scary and frankly I don't think I'm good enough to get in. "There are much better candidates," and my dream since I was a little girl is constantly being put down this year. If there's one thing that I would ever want is to make my family proud, my friends and those around me proud as well. I never want to a be a disappointment but I feel like that's all that I am, all that I ever will be. Nothing seems to being going right. All I ever feel is the feeling of being there (goal-wise) but not quite reaching the finish-line. well I have nothing more to say. bye.

Jennifermichelle